5 posts tagged “personal”

1. I came in the Rumor Mill and the only open table with a plug is directly under the air vent.  This would be the one instance when my junky car does not contain a spare jacket in it.
2. I never tire of tinkering with Movable Type.  I just completed my second installation of the month I suppose, and I still love messing with it.  People complain that it is so difficult to work with, but I swear to God 6A actually made it easier to install and much easier to control your templates.  You just have to play with it a little.
3. Today is Friday.  I suppose I should be living this Rockstar life right now, but I'm quite content to be sitting in the local coffeehouse at 7pm, listening to alternative music, smelling all the good food hey cook and enjoying my peace.
4. That said, it feels good to know I don't have a limited amount of days in the weekend to work with.  Having my life back rules big time.  I'd out the company I was working for in a very humorous way right now, but I'm sure there are some legalities involved in that.  Suffice it to say going from working all the time to living pretty leisurely was a needed change.  I need time to decompress. I need to get my groove on.
   
5. I went to the club last weekend.  I got hit on a lot.  This particular club is known in L.A. as a "big girl" club.  I flat out asked this guy who was hitting on me hardcore if he was a chubby chaser.  He stated he wants nothing to do with a thin girl.  He likes "ass and all dat".  Okay.
6. I'm still getting used to being back in California.
7. People drive stupidly on the freeway.
8. Stupidly is a lame adverb.
9. Oh yeah, I did have really good sex like three weeks ago that I forgot to write about I think. Since I'm so open with my sex life and everything.  So I guess that was kinda like getting my groove on, except the guy acted like a girl afterwards.  Remind me I want to write about that.  Why do y'all do that?
10. Speaking of writing, I plan on doing more of that too.
11. Also taking pictures
12. Which is what prompted the MT reinstall, I'm using two settings to test different things I like. 
    
13. Plus I wanted to go step by step and explain to some friends I'm trying to convert why I like Movable Type. And also how easy it should be for them to use the product like I do.
14. I say "plus" a lot, but at least I stopped saying "and plus".  I stopped after Warrick aka Husbandman made fun of me for doing it.
15. Speaking of Husbandman, I got the email reminder for Poet's Corner today, and it just reminded me that not only am I not in Vegas to go, but I haven't been to any poetry here in L.A. yet either.
16. I also still have not been to the beach.  Eep.
17. That of course can all be remedied now, since I have much more free time on my hands.
18. And a degree in the works.
19. So life is good right now.
20. It is also very, very random.
    

it was like that one scene in the legend of billie jean...

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an incident happened yesterday that showed me something about myself.  a guy actually took a swing at me and hit me in the eye, and i didn't back down.  i think it scared him too.  not only did i not scream, cry or act a fool, but i actually took the hit; i didn't fall.  someone jumped in between us to prevent it from going any further, and the rest of what happened will have to be told in court, because the sheriff's department got involved. 

i was protecting someone i love, and i am proud of that.  my sister and cousins were afraid i was going to have a black eye, but the Tom Ford Gucci's seemed to take most of the blow, and i received some scratches under my eye from wear they broke.  the hit didn't even hurt.  my sister said it was because i had adrenaline pumping, but i think it just annoyed me more, because it was so unnecessary, and it showed just how much of a pussy he is. 

i have no black eye this morning, but i do have a good story to tell when the time is right. 

the year of the pig
and a year of completion
restarting my life

Let's just say I am completely relating to Lil Mama and Avril Lavigne right now.

He stresses the word dating.  I asked him flat out today if he is in love with her, and he said he would let me know when he gets there.  I guess that is his way of saying no.

He stresses to me that I can't complain, because I stayed involved with him while I was supposedly digging him.  He's right, of course, but it doesn't make it sting any less.  He even said to me, "dang, you must have been really in love with dude."

I passed it off as rhetorical, but then he gave the indication that he was actually awaiting a response, and I was put in the position of owning my shit, so I said, "Once upon a time, yes."

It was once upon a time, wasn't it?  I'm not feeling it anymore, am I?  We said our goodbyes and that was supposed to be that, right?

So why is it, as I answered the question, I felt as if I were lying or covering something up? 

And why is it that I am bothered that he is seeing someone now when I'm not?

There is a word for people like me, selfish.

Much like the feline representation of my zodiac sign, I am possessive and territorial to a point.  I like to possess, and once I have possessed, I feel like it is mine, even if it is no longer in my possession. Don't make me claw you.

I do see the error in this logic, of course, but it is all a part of that growing up thing, and this is one of those things that I am not over yet.

So no, I don't like your girlfriend, and it's not because of any personal issue between she and I. 

I don't like your girlfriend because she isn't me.